Does anyone remember that movie? I do! Also the movie The Deep End Of The Ocean? These have been two movies that I have seen and remembered really well because I could really relate to them at different times in my life. This week has been especially challenging and I have reflected a lot on what if this is as good as it gets? I know God is only suppose to give you what you can handle but sometimes I wonder. I have felt like I am in the deepest end of the ocean, being pretty overwhelmed but things going on here. ( And by the way I am not a good swimmer) I remember that movie because it was very difficult to watch the first time since it dealt with a missing child and I saw it after my sister, Bernadette disappeared. This week doesn’t compare to the loss of Bernadette but I still have those feelings of not being able to do anything and things being out of control. I pray, I pray a lot these days. I pray that my son is safe, taking his meds and remembering that his Dad and I love him. I pray that the values and morals that we raised him with keep him on the right track. I try to find joy in the chores I do around the farm each day. I appreciate the little things like how quiet the barn becomes when everyone is munching on their hay. How the little cria stays by its Mom’s side but ventures off on its on every now and then. I watch the barn cats as they sit and watch me put my garden in. I enjoy the beauty of each and every rose on my rose bush as they start to bloom. I am grateful for those who offer words of encouragement and comfort. And for those who just listen. I am taking it one day at a time here. So till tomorrow, another day, I am counting all my blessings to help get me through.
